happy mother's day

it's been 11 years. it's been long enough that i have to calculate how long it's been rather than just know. i know i've had diabetes for two years now. one day, i'll also have to calculate this part of my life too. i remember thinking about my life today a decade ago. wondering what my life would be like and if i would remember life with my mom as vividly as i did the day she passed away. i was worried that anything less than perfect recollection would mean losing even more of her. the answer is no - i don't remember everything. i seem to access a few memories relatively often and then other memories will pop up, triggered by something small, like a particular food, picture or activity. i don't remember everything, but i'm okay with that because i still miss her a lot and love her. i remember perfectly that i had a mom who loved me very much and i wish she was here today.